Dreams

Do you remember being taught since you were young, to chase your dreams?

Do you remember the painted glory that people described once you reach that dream?

Do you remember how excited you were when you were finally getting close to that dream?

Do you remember all the sweats and tears you shed because you knew that it would all pay off when that dream of yours finally lands on the tip of your fingers?

Do you remember thinking that it would be all worth it because of that one moment your mind has conjured up since forever?

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Now, you've reached that dream.

Now what?

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Suddenly, the dream that you've longed forever doesn't seem as great as you've envisioned.

Suddenly, you find yourself seeking for the comfort you had before.

You find yourself feeling so lost and so alone. You find yourself letting the loneliness engulf yourself. You find yourself getting used to being alone. You find yourself wondering if all these hardships were worth these lonely mornings and quiet dinner nights.

Remember when someone once told you that feeling lonely when you're surrounded by people is one of the loneliest feeling ever? Suddenly, all these weeks flashed before your eyes and you realized that you're as lonely as you have ever been.

You watched as your so-called friends walked off without even acknowledging you. You tell yourself to shrug it off, but deep in your soul, you care a little bit. You realized how fickle and fake these friends are as they only call you when they feel like it, not because they want you. Sometimes, you wish you were cool enough for them, feeling unworthy and useless all over again. But then again, do you really want friends who values so little of you?

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Suddenly, you find yourself tearing up at the slightest thought of the people you miss so deeply. You tell them that you're okay, you tell them not to worry but deep at your core, your heart aches so badly for them.

You listened to their voices and a feeling that encompasses both comfort and sadness come rushing into your heart. You try so hard to hold your tears because you didn't want them to think that it's a wasted chance although some nights you wonder if it is. Your boyfriend does his best to comfort you, and you know that the best comfort you can get right now is his warm hugs and loving kisses he loves to plant on your head.

Suddenly, you find yourself wondering if this dream is worth all the loneliness you feel, despite how much success and money it brings. You wonder if you should let it go, but deep down, you're afraid that you might regret letting it slip your fingers so carelessly like that in future, so you know that you gotta be strong.