Her World ; under construction

2012-02-15T01:38:00.000-08:00

Yay, what a great friend you are.

Note the sarcasm.

Muffled Screams

2012-01-21T02:37:00.000-08:00

Just close your eyes,

The sun is going down,

You'll be alright,

No one can hurt you now,

Come morning light,

You & I'll be safe and sound.

She knows where she going, at least she thought, she knew. Now she's lost all over again.

-

3 weeks of school already feels like crap. It's a bumpy road already, when some days I'm enjoying it, yet mostly, I asked myself what the hell am I doing here. It doesn't help that they are undoubtedly having their time of their life, overlooking the my crushed fortitude. It hurts because I'm almost forgotten already. It pains me, because now I am their odd puzzle, as if I never fit in before. These unleashing true colors are just too agonizing to watch much less to feel.

Most of the time, I just want to hold my ground and stay Here. Here is where I think I belong. Yet it isn't so easy. I wish people could understand. Could you see? I'm There. I don't belong There. But will I belong Here? What if time after time, my thoughts snap back again? I'm lost here. I keep wondering where I am I suppose to stand. The fun raging on behind me keeps tiding my spirits down. How can I look forward, when forward isn't even where I want to be. This petty little odd mid-dimension is killing me inside.

As ages passed, it seems like people are starting to understand me less and less. I find myself grasping my own little feelings alone, struggling to hold my strength as much as possible. Where is the felicity that I prayed for?

I guess it is time to keep my heads up. There's no reason for this to happen to me or maybe there is. I don't know. Someday I'll find my place. Someday, I hope I'll stand here and feel like a little girl being in her pink castle of candies with myriads of fantasies laying upon her eyes. Just some day.

Something amazing will come out of this, someday.

I guess I just got to wait.

Merry Go Round

2011-12-09T20:59:00.000-08:00

HI WORLD,

LAUREN! You actually read my blog? XD You have no idea how surprised I am that people still come across my awfully dead and dull little "under construction" blog!

So, it been halfway through about holidays and in about a month time, a new chapter of our life begins. We are gonna be FORM 4! That's where the real difficulty begins, or so what most people said. On the contrary, I'm actually pretty hyped up for next year. Though I have to constantly remind myself that I must not be lazy and slack too much especially my curricular activities. But there's also a list of things I dread for next year.

Okay, putting that aside, we should still indulge ourselves with this very sweet freedom while it still last. My holidays are so far quite relaxing and productive. I got to be the one of the most 'rajin ass' during the holidays. I didn't study OF COURSE! I did a lot of kumon worksheet and practiced my piano. And finally spent days out with my dear friends. Let's see, I danced and cosplayed for the first time! Yes I know, I COSPLAYED. And I eat. I read 6 novels (achievement for a non-bibliophile person)! Finished Hunger Games trilogy. I draw, paint, sketch, watch disney movies. Finally, what nearly everyone is doing, SURF THE NET and YOUTUBE.

My dear primary school best friend, Li Anne slept over my house and we talked non-stop until the next night when she left. :( Man, I miss you so freaking much! Wish we were in the same school. After 4 years of distance, our friendship is still endless eh!

Too bad my holidays are not filled with exciting vacations like my friends. But it's okay. I hope I'll get my chance next year. Well, I'm going back to Penang in 4 days time. And that's enough to excite me! Can't wait to laugh like a maniac with my crazy cousins.

Wow, that's quite a rant! :P Till I see you again.

See ya~

2011-11-22T08:33:00.000-08:00

I think, I am ready. To take off. To let go of almost everything. To end with a new fresh beginning. To leave everything behind.

I think I might be ready. But then again, I'm confused. Arousing questions swirling inside my crazy dimension. Maybe I need a little clarity.

It frightens me to think that if I were to loosen my grasp to set what's before me free, I might end up regretting, realizing that I'm not so ready after all.

It's better there. I'm afraid what I am searching for isn't there. For it isn't here or anywhere.

Two Oh Wan One

2011-01-08T07:07:00.000-08:00

Yes, I know, my blog is forever under construction. :P Oh well.

Won't be blogging much, in fact, so seldom you'll think I quit. Maybe I would. :D

I'm starting to lose my blogging mojo. Besides, I think most people are starting to lose it too.

Well, I'm just gonna do a short brief post about my holidays and school?

Holidays was pretty great actually. I spent most of my time with family. Holidays are to spend time with family right? It was especially really fun when my two cousins came over and we had loads of fun. I could talk and laugh with them so much that my stomach hurts. And do crappy stuff like messing with make ups like silly girls. And then I went to Penang and of course, stay up till god knows what time laughing like mad talking about craps! Sadly, this time my sis couldn't come. But still, it was an absolute awesomely fun 2 weeks.

Ngaw, I miss my siaw sampat kia cousins. The boys are definitely growing up! We look kind of BBQ-ed here because we had BBQ for dinner. :D

And of course I went out with my friends a few times. Had sleepover with sue lin and amanda lim, it was a pretty last minute thing. They said I talked in my sleep. *oops* And I went out to watch movie with my best friend, amanda irdina. :)

And GAH, back to school. I received Christmas pressies from my two very dear friends. Couldn't be more elated! Hee.

Hmm, one week down and it was, exhausting. Well, first week of school is always that way!

51 more weeks to go!

That's a brief post.

Till I update again! Let's have a great two oh wan one. :)

-yisian

2010-12-01T06:40:00.000-08:00

LALALALALALA.

:)

Happy holidays, peeps!

From a distance.

2010-11-22T23:06:00.000-08:00

Keeping in touch again with our fellow old friends never fails to bring a frantic smile to our face.

Heck, I miss them loads. My dear friends like Li Anne, Richard, Beverly, Jun Wei, and etc.

There are times when I wonder how would my school life be if I went to SMK Taman SEA instead, where most of my friends are there. There were reasons why I chose to SMKDU instead of Taman SEA.

Don't get me wrong, I'm certainly having the time of my life being apart of the DU-rians.

Occasionally, I would still think about that.

I'd love drop by SMK Taman SEA someday and say hello to my dear old friends.

-yisian ;)

Memories

2010-11-16T06:29:00.000-08:00

A truly great awesome fun and memorable day out with amazingly great awesome friends!

I had lots of fun!

A : Do you guys work out regularly at the gym for nice abs or muscles?
B : Nope, I work out problems instead.

A conversation I had with a friend of mine that was somehow able to amuse me in a very intriguing way.

I thought that it was a great, great day. I'm not exaggerating here!

Splashing, countdown to the attack big bucket of water, dancing at the surf beach, piggy back rides, burying sandy sands, loaning shirts, thrilling roller coasters and extreme upside down rides with adrenaline rush and endless laughters on a hot, sunny day.

Oh yesh, this is an awesome year. A year filled with joyous smiles, tough challenges, amusing discovery, quality times and so many memorable moments.

It's pretty amazing how each year passes, and how great it gradually becomes and sometimes always greater than the past year. I think I'm not the only one who thinks so.

2 Anggerikians! (P/S: The cool nerds!)

Pn. Tan : It's funny how the people in the first class makes so much more noise than the other classes.

-yisian

Another begins

2010-11-11T21:33:00.000-08:00

I want a helium balloon! :D

Status of 2010 : Ending.

I'm not going to say how awesome is it (because it's gonna go on endlessly) but heck, it was a great year.

It wasn't only because of my dear friends, it was technically everything. Like the new person I've changed, the achievements I made and finally my dear supportive family.

Definitely an indescribably great satisfying year.

I am going to miss it.

And OMG, 2011 is next year.

Do you realize there's one more year till 2012?(Da world is going to die!)

Psst, somebody needs to tell me if 2012 is real or not!

Oh wells, let's turn our backs and focus what's ahead of us.

Even if it's end of the world~!

(Sorry, I'm being very lame right now)

Gotta rush to school and enjoy the final day of school!

-yisian :)

2010-11-04T09:13:00.000-07:00

I needed a new beginning, a new change.

Frustrated over the darn HTML craps! I'm still doing my blog layouts.*sighs helplessly*

I realize my cbox is just (...) Really, do people still read my blog? Oh wells!

I like the little cartoon girl on top. Chewing gums and listening to music using headphones while using the laptop, if you are looking at me now, that's what I always do. :D

Looking at my old posts at my old blog, and I didn't know I was so irritating last time.

I guess I changed quite a lot.

Oh, when I'm starting a new blog it does not mean that I'll update more often. Hehe. :D

Stay tuned, people.

(If there is.)

-yisian